Who do you see when you look in the mirror? Do you see yourself as you really are? Do you see yourself as the woman you want to be? Or do you see all of your flaws?
I am NOT perfect, about as far from perfect as one can be. I am shaped like a pear, that means my ass is larger than my boobs. However, when I look in the mirror, I see my inner self, the one that is hidden by my exterior, the one that very few have seen. My inner self houses my heart, which has been ripped out of my chest a few times by men who were callous, by women who I thought were my friends, and by strangers who made derogatory statements about me. However, it doesn't change that heart, you see my heart never sees bad in people even when it is there. I have always looked for the good, no matter what. It houses my soul which sings when I see my daughter's smile, or my Master tells me I am beautiful. My soul also is the one thing that makes me different from any other person on the planet (okay so does my DNA), it is the thing that I will be judged for at the end of my life at the pearly gates, it is also the place where my greatest triumphs & tragedies are stored.
This past weekend I went to the calling hours of a family friend. He has four equally beautiful daughters, all successful in their own rights, all married with families. It was sad to hear the youngest one, who is in her 40's state that she hated herself. To me that is the greatest tragedy of all. She was shown love all of her life and she still doesn't see what everyone else does: her goodness, her love, her gentle nature. I wanted to shake her right there and then, however it was not the place or time.
Loving yourself takes time and energy, and yes there are days when I look in the mirror and go, "Oh God, do I need help!" those to me are what I refer to as "bad hair days" so I put my baseball cap on and go about my day like I didn't see the crows feet, the puffy eyes, or the ice cream cone that is now forever on my hips. In order to be loved, you have to love yourself, and accept who you are in the mirror.
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